Mirrors

Now that I am working in the salon, I realize how much I avoided mirrors. Up until a few months ago I only had the mirror in my bathroom. It only shows your face. Now I have one on my dresser, but still not a full-length. I see myself in the mirrors at work all the time. I think that I couldn't have handled it pre-surgery. When I catch myself in the mirror now, it doesn't ruin my day. I remember in high school going to get my hair done at David's, the first salon my mom worked in, I hates sitting in front of the mirror. Now, I won't spend my time preening the way Jake does, but it is liberating not having to hate myself so much.

baby ect

My second ultrasound went well. Caris took a while to cooperate, but they finally got to see all of her. She is doing well. I am fast approaching the time in pregnancy when you take the glucose tolerance test. I am sure the 50 grams of sugar in the drink would kill me. I know it would at the very least cause me to have dumping syndrome. I have had it twice since my surgery, and that is twice too many times. I talked to my doctor and in 3 weeks when I am 28 weeks along I will take a fasting test, and two hours after eating for a week. He said that should tell us where we stand as far as the gestational diabetes. I am glad that he didn't push the issue. There is no way I was taking that test.

I fear, not true, I know I am using the baby as an excuse to eat. Not that I shouldn't be eating, but I feel it allowing me to justify old habits. I need to be aware of that, and know that I have my work cut out for me. Especially after she is born. I am by no stretch of the imagination thin so I have more weight to lose. I haven't gained in my pregnancy this far, and I know in my head that I might. That is so scary to me. I know that isn't rational, but that doesn't change the feeling of victory I get everytime I get on the scale and it is the same.

The salon

I can't believe it is opening today. My parents, especially my dad, worked so hard. The space is beautiful. I am sure it is going to be a success. We were there yesterday putting in some final touches and I go in later today to learn all there is about being the receptionist. Jake is the other part-time receptionist. I worry about how much work he will get done around all those mirrors. Jake does love his look. To which I say good for him. I can't wait to get my hair fixed. I hope they do it soon. No one needs this hot mess representing the salon.

I go in tomorrow for another ultrasound. They couldn't see everything the first go round. I am excited to see her again. She is very active. I was hoping for a mellow baby since Gray is such a crazy man.
Gray has a huge crush on LaRita's friend Britney. He says she is his best girl. He smiles whenever you say her name. I guess he is into older ladies.

I'm back

I still am having a hard time being pregnant. Nothing alarming, just no energy. I am still losing weight, instead of gaining. Nothing the doctor is concerned with. I had an ultrasound, and we are having a girl. I will have her around mid-November. We have finally picked a name we like. It is Caris. The name is Welsh and means one who loves and is loved. She is much more active than Grayson, which is scary. He is the busiest child on earth. I think she may not be more active, but because of my weightloss I am more sensitive to the movements.
My parents salon is set to open August 5th. I am excited to start working again. I also had an interview at Kohl's. I should hear something about that in the next couple of days. The problem with that is I love Kohl's so I will probably spend my whole check there. Oh well, the discount will help with back to school clothes. I didn't tell the interviewer I was pregnant. I figured no way would they hire me knowing I would be gone for the holidays. I still don't really show, so I think he had no idea. Caris did wiggle through the entire interview though. I guess she didn't like being a secret.

All or nothing

That is how I like to things. I think it is part of my excessive personality. I am sure it is obvious given that I have posted over fifty times in one month, then two in another. I get way into things, then over it as quickly as I got into it.
Anyway, I am feeling better now. I have been thinking I haven't really felt "good" since the surgery. As soon as I was getting it all together I was pregnant, and sick. Now that has passed. I hope.
It is the end of the school year and LaRita is finishing 8th grade. They have a promotion ceremony and dinner dance. The other girls she hangs with are convinced this is the prom and for some reason their mother's got them the dresses. They even sent home a note saying this is not the prom. LaRita put up a fight, but we did get a dress that is adorable and appropriate for the occasion. She was mad I didn't let her wear a borrowed royal blue bridesmaid dress, that was entirely too big, and had deodorant stains. I am unreasonable, I know. Actually, after the hissy I told her to wear it. What do I care? She wouldn't though. We went shopping and actually did not kill each other. It is a summer miracle. On top of the dress I have to give her $50 for a six flags field trip and the dance tickets. The end of the year field trips cost me a fortune. Just let them out earlier instead of burning up the last two weeks with field trips, and play days. I know they are required to go so many hours, but it gets expensive.
I have lost a few more pounds since getting pregnant, but nothing I find too alarming. I am about 10 weeks from finding out the sex. I can't wait for that.

Come on Friday

Chris and I went and bought a new mattress set. We can get it on Friday. I can't wait. Our old one is terrible. It has big holes that the lovely Sherman chewed in it when we first got him. Now I just have to break it to the dogs that they will be surfing the couch. I don't think that will go over well, but what can ya do? In an effort to save money I said we would pick up the mattress, now I just have to figure out how we will do that. We don't have a truck or anything. I am so excited to get it, I may just carry it home on my back.

It's been awhile

I haven't posted in a while. Things have been pretty crazy around here as of late. The biggest thing is that I am now 9 weeks pregnant. I wasn't supposed to get pregnant for at least a year post surgery, but here I am. So far things are going well. I am not feeling well, but that is getting better. I was never sick when I was pregnant with Grayson, so this is all new. I am being careful about my nutrition, and have lost a couple more pounds. I am down 80 pounds since my surgery in September. This is all very exciting, but scary. I just want to make sure I do a good job taking care of this baby. I am not happy with my current doctor, so I am going to look for a new one. I don't think he got the implications of my surgery . He is nice, but just not for me.
LaRita and Gray are less than thrilled with the prospect of a new family member. I think it will be okay in time.
Aside from that, my mom is doing much better. She will not get well overnight, but she is making steady progress. A huge limb from the lot next to my driveway fell on my minivan a couple of weeks ago. It is in the shop. I found the person who owns the property, and sent him a letter. I paid to have a return receipt so I will know when he gets it. I don't have high hopes of getting anything out of him though. I guess there goes our rebate check. My insurance is giving us money to get it fixed, minus our deduct able. I think we may be able to get it fixed with that. Chris is a mechanic so he knows a guy who knows a guy. It is just an aggravating situation. I was thinking of getting a smaller car since gas is so high, but with another one on the way I guess not. It is also nice to have the van with my youth director job.
Gray is home sick today. He is better now, but he had a fever last night. He has missed so much school this year. Good thing it was only preschool.
I am going to try to post more now. Especially about the pregnancy stuff. Sorry I got so behind.