Mirrors

Now that I am working in the salon, I realize how much I avoided mirrors. Up until a few months ago I only had the mirror in my bathroom. It only shows your face. Now I have one on my dresser, but still not a full-length. I see myself in the mirrors at work all the time. I think that I couldn't have handled it pre-surgery. When I catch myself in the mirror now, it doesn't ruin my day. I remember in high school going to get my hair done at David's, the first salon my mom worked in, I hates sitting in front of the mirror. Now, I won't spend my time preening the way Jake does, but it is liberating not having to hate myself so much.

baby ect

My second ultrasound went well. Caris took a while to cooperate, but they finally got to see all of her. She is doing well. I am fast approaching the time in pregnancy when you take the glucose tolerance test. I am sure the 50 grams of sugar in the drink would kill me. I know it would at the very least cause me to have dumping syndrome. I have had it twice since my surgery, and that is twice too many times. I talked to my doctor and in 3 weeks when I am 28 weeks along I will take a fasting test, and two hours after eating for a week. He said that should tell us where we stand as far as the gestational diabetes. I am glad that he didn't push the issue. There is no way I was taking that test.

I fear, not true, I know I am using the baby as an excuse to eat. Not that I shouldn't be eating, but I feel it allowing me to justify old habits. I need to be aware of that, and know that I have my work cut out for me. Especially after she is born. I am by no stretch of the imagination thin so I have more weight to lose. I haven't gained in my pregnancy this far, and I know in my head that I might. That is so scary to me. I know that isn't rational, but that doesn't change the feeling of victory I get everytime I get on the scale and it is the same.

The salon

I can't believe it is opening today. My parents, especially my dad, worked so hard. The space is beautiful. I am sure it is going to be a success. We were there yesterday putting in some final touches and I go in later today to learn all there is about being the receptionist. Jake is the other part-time receptionist. I worry about how much work he will get done around all those mirrors. Jake does love his look. To which I say good for him. I can't wait to get my hair fixed. I hope they do it soon. No one needs this hot mess representing the salon.

I go in tomorrow for another ultrasound. They couldn't see everything the first go round. I am excited to see her again. She is very active. I was hoping for a mellow baby since Gray is such a crazy man.
Gray has a huge crush on LaRita's friend Britney. He says she is his best girl. He smiles whenever you say her name. I guess he is into older ladies.