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My second ultrasound went well. Caris took a while to cooperate, but they finally got to see all of her. She is doing well. I am fast approaching the time in pregnancy when you take the glucose tolerance test. I am sure the 50 grams of sugar in the drink would kill me. I know it would at the very least cause me to have dumping syndrome. I have had it twice since my surgery, and that is twice too many times. I talked to my doctor and in 3 weeks when I am 28 weeks along I will take a fasting test, and two hours after eating for a week. He said that should tell us where we stand as far as the gestational diabetes. I am glad that he didn't push the issue. There is no way I was taking that test.

I fear, not true, I know I am using the baby as an excuse to eat. Not that I shouldn't be eating, but I feel it allowing me to justify old habits. I need to be aware of that, and know that I have my work cut out for me. Especially after she is born. I am by no stretch of the imagination thin so I have more weight to lose. I haven't gained in my pregnancy this far, and I know in my head that I might. That is so scary to me. I know that isn't rational, but that doesn't change the feeling of victory I get everytime I get on the scale and it is the same.