76

I am down 76 pounds since September. This is a biggie for me. I decided that I would get a tattoo when I lost 75 pounds. I am getting one on the top of my foot. The symbol above is what I getting. If what I read is right, it is a symbol for the 3 stages of womanhood, maiden, mother, and crone. I am also into a size 18. I have been logging my food on the daily plate and staying under 1200 calories a day. My support group said that seems to be too few calories and should try for more. I am going to. I was out a lot the past couple days, and did not log. I notice that I don't feel as well. I know this is due to poor choices. I hate food journals, but right now I know I need the accountability. I bought a sewing machine today. I am making a quilt for LaRita, and I want to learn other things. I need to make curtains, so I can ditch the ugly ass blinds I got going on. I am getting concerned about the amount of money I spend. I have never been good at self denial. I blame my dad. I was not cut out to be poor. I am not a minimalist, more of a maximumist. I like stuff, and I want it. I try to not buy, but I always give in. I have been obsessed with the sewing machine for a couple months. I feared that if I didn't buy it, and continued to talk about it I would lose all friends and family. People worry about transfer addiction, and I would think this was it. Thing is I have always been a spender. I don't just spend on myself. In fact, I would say I spend more on LaRita than anyone. This will probably change once I can get cute clothes. Although, I find the choices in the regular stores overwhelming. I am used to such a limited selection, and buying clothes based on fit, and size not style. I don't even know what I like. I know I like to look good though. I went to sephora and was ready to sell Grayson so I could buy make-up. I never knew I was vain. I need to own up to it, I am. I get my nails done, my eyebrows threaded (way better than waxing), and have spent more money than I can afford to on jewelry. I didn't even own a pair of earrings before wls. I always wore make-up out of the house, but only because the sight of my unmade up face in the rear view would send me straight home in shame. This has been a long rambling post, and it wasn't even what I set out to blog about. I am not spending all week, and next weekend I will be in Tennessee. I am sure to spend like an idiot then.