Am I excited or nervous?

Tomorrow night I am going to see some friends for the first time since my surgery. I am excited to go out and to see them since it is always a good time. I also am excited to be seen. However, this is how crazy I am, I am worried they won't have a reaction. What if I don't look different to them? I also think it is possible they will think it would make me uncomfortable to talk about. I just know I will be disappointed if no one says anything. It is a distinct possibility given the people we will be seeing. I didn't do this for appearance reasons. It just seems that is what I am hung up on now. I have to remind myself that I told the guy at the psych evaluation that I would be happy losing 50 pounds. That has not turned out to be true. I have lost about 63 and feel like I am less than half way there. I'll let you know how it goes.