Obsessive much

I have been becoming more aware of my obsessive nature since my surgery. I knew I was obsessive about food. I would start thinking about my next meal before I was even finished with my first one. Without food as a huge obsession I have other things to obsess about. Like, the scale. I weigh myself every time I go in the bathroom. Drinking 64 ounces of water a day means I am in there a lot. I got the thought in my head that I needed a full size blender. I may want to make some tomato bisque. I had to go get one that night. In the freezing cold. I haven't even gotten it out of the box. Today, I went to two different thrift stores looking for an ice tea maker. I would have gone to more, but I called my mom and she said I could have hers. I did this eventhough I had to drag Collin with me, in the freezing cold. I am also in a ton of pain today. I have a terrible pain in my side that I think is from an ovarian cyst. I am astounded that I felt so strongly about ice tea that I went out in pain to get it. The thing is I probably would even use the flippin thing. I am going to the doctor next week and hopefully can get some help, or medication for my obsessive thoughts. It is like when you have a song in your head all day. Sometimes, it is a song, sometimes though it is just a word. A single word on a loop reeling through my head. I am watching the show big medicine, it is about a surgery center that does wls. There is a woman on the show who is showing the therapist all the things she buys, like a closet with over 200 handbags. I don't want to be that woman.